Merdeka!!!

[sile la bc dgn penuh smgt ok!! ;p]

sempena hari merdeka ni...marilah kite semua memerdekakan diri dan minda dari segala bentuk penjajahan dari mane2 pengaruh luar. kadang2 kita rase kita bebas dan merdeka tapi sebenarnye mungkin tidak. kite mesti ade pendirian dlm hidup. jangan cube sesekali jd lemah sebab perkara2 yg remeh temeh n xmunasabah. xsalah rase sdh n kecewa n meluahkan tp jgn berhenti melangkah. walaupun masalah yg kite hadapi kekecewaan yg kite tempuhi ibarat seluas lautan kerana pasti ade yg lebih baik sesudah suatu bencana. jika kite masih berasa lemah dan tidak bermaya...ingat lah.mungkin ade yg lebih berat ujiannye. merdeka bukan bermksd bebas luaran tp juga minda dan jiwa. sy sedar saya masih belum merdeka tp sy berharap sy blh merdeka dlm mase terdekat. sy akan cube sbb sy xmahu lg pengaruh2 dan kuasa2 luar mengganggu pemikiran hati dan perasaan sy. walaupon merdeka individu xsame dgn merdeka sesebuah negara tp ertinye masih same. saya gembira malaysia masih merdeka dan berharap akan terus merdeka

Malam ini

mlm ni tdo awl ok. so dat esok blh buat kerja siang hari. xperlu la kot berjaga mlm lg. nnt pening kepala n siang pon xdpt bwt pape. membazir mase. malam ni awl2 kene prepare utk tdo. xkire wut happen tdo jugak!! pedulikan masalah dunia. haha...sibuk2 nk pk hal org.

for you: wish i cud b ur sunshine ur rainbow ur good day
semoga happy alwez :)

*harap2 ade delivery air kelapa esok*

serabutness

i am in malaysia. love dat fact. b4 smpi mcm2 dah rancang. all dis n dat. mostly all da happy things. but i forgot dat life isn't alwez good n happy n indah n penuh dgn pelangi2. now come all the drama n scene n wuteva we call the unhappy episodes in our life. n paling xbest is once u heard a bad news...u shud expect they come in package. n for my case...selamat menempuhi hujan ribut la afta dis. hoho...

sirius sgt serabut n once again rase seperti mahu lari again. cz dats wut i alwez do. [owh sy mmg suke lari dr masalah n bersedih2 padahal blh je explain mayb things get better but sy tidak tabah]

sy xtahu sejauh mane sy blh bergembira tp sy akn sntiase cube gembira demi org2 yg sy syg [xmahu mereka risau again]

again reminder: jgn pasang angan2 cz kite hanya merancang n it seems like Allah knows wut best 4 us [need to find dat hikmah asap or i'll lost]

Reminder

for myself

• Berhenti berharap
• Myself 1st then the others
• Keep urself busy --> so dat dun hv to think
  
• Don't try to adjust cz it won't work
• Be strong
  
• Jgn cube mengadu susah to anyone cz it's useless
• ...
• ...
• ...
• Try to hate everything around me. maybe i'll feel better than loving
  

Sweetness

Last nite i was unhappy. Today i woke up n check my mail. Got an e-card. How sweet~
Thanx n sorry. I'll b more understanding. It's just cz i miss u.

*Happy Ramadhan Everyone*

*My last day in Porsche*

=)

Tidak gembira

berasa tidak gembira

Minggu2 terakhirku

Super damn bored xtau nk buat ape kt ofis n like hell tired berpura2 busy from 820 till 350 everyday for dis whole week.hoho....stil not finish packing. wonder how the number of boxes bertmbh. dulu pindah sikit jer ;p

siape2 sile la tlg saya kemas umh...huhu

Those memory that i cud neva forget n Collide

yesterday i was packing my stuff when i found some old pics n cards from everyone. i read it n hv a close look at everything. n i realize how i miss those time. those happy sweet memory dat cud alwez make me cry whenever my mind came across it. i cried n then fall asleep while i was still on phone. just like da old days~

i wake up n feels dizzy. got this song from someone. then i cry again


via videosift.com

"Collide"

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

[when will i stop crying?]

Something from my dear ayue ;p

"being in a stable relationship means u hav a haven, regardless of da probs da outside world decides 2 throw at u..being in a relationship dat offers mutual support will boost both ur confidence n well-being..diz might help 2 explain y ppl who've been happily married 4 years tend 2 live longer"

Keep up da gud work!!but rmmbr, if uve not been 2getha 4 long, u may stil b experiencing da "high" of falling in luv..once normality sets in, u may find u have 2 work harder 2 keep da spark alive..

Suggestion: suprise dinners or sending sexy text messages..

lol

Practical.Report.Packing.Moveout

At last! 6 month is almost over. I was afraid that i wouldn't able to finish the report but i did! 43 pages in total. not bad heh ;p Hooray to myself. Eventhou ayat berterabur my supervisor stil cud understand wut i'm trying to say. good2.haha..Now i need sum1 to check the german for me.any volunteer? =D

Today my supervisor shud b in holiday already but he still came. Is it possible dat he postponed his holiday again? extremely workaholic old guy. yesterday he told me bout his health problem.go n see doc la! since i started prac he neva failed to come. amazing kn? even holiday pon dye sanggup cancel. [erk...termerepek sekejap] back to my practical...i received my official certificate already! yuhuuu!!! but i stil hv another week to go =.=' jgn tertipu.. but i'm relieve

so next to do is packing.2 boxes is ready.got another 15(?) boxes to be fill. i need help!! ;p by weekend everything shud b settle i hope. then i cud continue doing my list to do, to have, to go and to eat while i'm in msia. it's holiday babe!! i'm travelling to msia.lol...

can't wait!! *happy*

[semua org tau aku nk blk msia.giler kecoh nk mampos sendiri.harharhar...]

Unhealthy

when it comes to time like dis..
all i wanna do is cry
n i did
n i wish
it's still da same

p/s: i still did those unhealthy thing even i said i dun want nemore...really need help. i'm confuse. again!

The Real Thing

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it

But sometimes when you talk
It's obvious you want to show it
So don't blow it

Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There's a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment

Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate, driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

Sometimes it hurts to watch you leave
It feels like you're taking a part of me with you
I never know how it'll be
I guess it's just a mystery
But is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin on)

Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot, tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate, driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

Tell me what we got, tell me it's a lot, tell me it's the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that's a good thing
It's a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it's fate, driving me insane
Tell me it's the real thing
The real thing

=.=

Tunggu Sekejap

One less happy people

6 more suffering hours hopefully.
Done nothing since i got back.
Thanx Krun cz willing to share stories for making the end of today seem not dat long nemore

Tag from Mira

Since i just got back n too lazy to do anything meaningful...kite lyn tag from Mira, my skoolmate aka tmn sepermainan time kecik2 dulu~

Bekas Kekasih Saya: ...

Saya sedang mendengar: Tak Bisa Memilihmu by Sixth Sense

Mungkin saya patut: siapkn practical report, basuh baju, kemas rumah dan packing utk pindah tp mungkin sy patut jer...hakikatnye =.=


Saya suka: warna n ceria

Sahabat-sahabat saya: adelah kesygn sy

Saya tak faham: kenapa saya selalu berase pelik2


Saya kehilangan: rutin saya utk seketika. hv to get use to it

Ramai yg berkata: realiti itu mmg kejam.hoho

Cinta itu adalah: rahsia

Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang: makan dgn sedapnye....sy mahu juge!

Saya akan cuba: menguruskn life sy yg makin serabut nih

Perkataan SELAMANYA membawa maksud: sampai bila2

Telefon bimbit saya: dh berumur 3 thn lebih dan perlulah bertukar...blackberry bitte!! danke :)

Bila saya terjaga: sy slalu bersyukur sy masih lg bernyawa :)

Saya paling meluat: bile org meluat dgn sy.hahaha

Pesta/parti adalah: sgt sesak. sy xsuke

Haiwan yang paling comel pernah saya temui: tak perasan la pulak. [salah sy xbrape nk usha haiwan.mungkin sbb mak sy xsuke haiwan *sorry mak ;p*]


Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan saya ialah: di umur sy tak perlu pikul byk tanggungjawab n xfaham erti real life.main2 kn best


Hari ini: sy abeskn dlm train jer. hantar mereka2 pulang msia

Malam ini saya akan: xsabar2 tggu esok pagi

Esok pula saya akan: berharap SELAMANYA ialah hr ahad

Saya betul-betul inginkan: sebuah kehidupan yg gembira disamping org2 yg sy syg

Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini: ok. sy ready utk keluar!

Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan: shopping mall aka therapie center. hik!

Makanan Barat atau Jepun? : owh mestila jepon sbb sy suke sushi xsuke dgg itu! yurks

Bilik yang terang atau gelap?: samar2 boleh x? sy tkt gelap tp sy xsuke sgt terang

Ayat terakhir yang anda telah katakan pada seseorang: bye

Siapa yang ingin anda tag?: kayrun, wo, fira, acap, lisa n every1 yg i follow la senang

oOoOo yeah

At last!!! i'm relief. Seperti mahu berjoget2 pon ade rasenye. Up till now i've been feeling super down n guilty cz rase like i've done nothing n each wednesday will berase resah gelisah thinking "apela aku nk present kt diorg today...huhu" but now not nemore :)

Wif perasaan separuh cuak separa nk pengsan i went to see my Betreuer. Told him wut i'm doing at da moment which is just trying my best to finish my report for Hochschule and said sorry that i haven't been much help as a trainee in the department. but being himself, a gentleman old leader he told me that i've done much already n shudn't feel dat way. Thanx God! Now i like him even more ;)

He's alwez the one who make me feel important n appreciated. Not like a few fella who hv been the reason why i hate to go to work everyday. Not to worry cz i juz hv 2 more suffering week to go~ or maybe less suffering cz i heard they gonna hv holiday starting next week. Yuhuuu.... Gonna hv my last Sitzung next week. Letztendlich...

today's Sitzung took 3 hours to finish n lucky me went home at 715 pm driven by my nachfolge :)

p/s to myself: Don't repeat da same mistake!! Learn from lesson. Took only the experience. Left all the unhappy thought n feeling behind.

Going back to Malaysia on 26. Aug 2009. Can't wait! *happy*

BM

mengapakah lately ni sy asik berjumpe mat saleh2 cube berbahasa melayu even di dlm bus hendak pulang ke rumah....

"selamat...selamat..."

funny.penat tggu next word dye. hihi...